Wednesday, March 09, 2011
-tough luck
I lost to nothing.
And then now. Im demoralised. Im feeling shitty. Unimportant. Crazy.
Guess its the changes that i have to cope with again.
SteR at 12:42:00 AM
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Monday, February 21, 2011
- the worst day so far.
Today is the worse day of 2011... besides all the bad days.
Works shit and then homes shit too. Imagine you had the shittiest day of your life in the noon and then you try to get back home for some cuddly love from your bed... and then you find your parents shouting at your grandmother for not eating her rice because she don't know there is rice for her to eat.
Ridiculous. Really ridiculous. If I had someone to hug right now i would not be here bitching about how sad and stupid i am.
My 3mth parttime contract in Eco.Id is ending in 7 days. One side of my face really wish for them to extend me as a full-time. More pay more work cos they fired quite a few of them and then sparked of a series of resignations due to poor management and high politics plays. Another side of me face really wish to leave, as the life there will really kill me. The project leaders should be in the politics world seriously... leading projects is not really their thing. =/ I have to really maintain a neutral and be friendly fake guy to survive in this co.
Sometimes i wished i was still working with Kk. haha. He has got good heart and good management skills...
We always had to lose something or taste something worse to know what we had before was nice. Not the first time it happen but i guess this is how it works.
I feel really really really messed up right now. I lost a few precious things and people in my life and i don't know how i could recover them... i think i could never recover them already. I need sleep now cos i feel like i had given up on everything...
I shud die.
SteR at 10:44:00 PM
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Monday, December 20, 2010
-its been months.
Hmm... Havent been on blogger for many months!!!! Always wanted to speak my mind but dono what to say. It has been a relaxing few months of rest.. but now im ald working... its sianness again..
Just wana say... that i still dono what is what. Its confusing.
SteR at 12:33:00 AM
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Friday, September 24, 2010
-I wonder
I wonder how exactly should i feel....
SteR at 12:36:00 AM
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Friday, September 17, 2010
-i thought i
I dreamt of you.
Shopping and chatting happily.
I still remember clearly, the stuffs that I picked up in my dreams.
So clearly.
Sometimes my dreams can be nice.
SteR at 12:20:00 PM
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Wednesday, September 15, 2010
-missing people...
Ah... Something weird happened today. I saw a "Letitia" on the train. A look-alike. And then when i was working in the office, Real Letitia actually sms-ed me all the way from Perth. I was like WOW. 0.0' just to see how am I doing and all that.. Good to know that people are missing me from there man. But its good to know that people are missing you whether its overseas or wherever. Just proves that you made a difference in someones life to make them think about you from time to time. Its a good feeling to be missed but missing people is another story ain't it?
L just told me that we are being deleted by a friend in FB.
What for? For nothing. Really nothing that person just thought too much and thought we are against her or something. =| Its not that I dont care or what, its just that, there nothing I can do can I?
SteR at 11:36:00 PM
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Friday, September 10, 2010
-tired
Im freaking tired.
But i cant really sleep.
Nobody to chat with now. =|
Lost.
I was so tired in the office that i fell aslp while surfing the net.
Its one of those rare days that we both had almost nothing to do...
Didnt catch any wa wa this week yet. Hand damn itchy. AHHH.
Escaping isnt an option.
SteR at 12:20:00 AM
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