Monday, February 21, 2011
- the worst day so far.
Today is the worse day of 2011... besides all the bad days.
Works shit and then homes shit too. Imagine you had the shittiest day of your life in the noon and then you try to get back home for some cuddly love from your bed... and then you find your parents shouting at your grandmother for not eating her rice because she don't know there is rice for her to eat.
Ridiculous. Really ridiculous. If I had someone to hug right now i would not be here bitching about how sad and stupid i am.
My 3mth parttime contract in Eco.Id is ending in 7 days. One side of my face really wish for them to extend me as a full-time. More pay more work cos they fired quite a few of them and then sparked of a series of resignations due to poor management and high politics plays. Another side of me face really wish to leave, as the life there will really kill me. The project leaders should be in the politics world seriously... leading projects is not really their thing. =/ I have to really maintain a neutral and be friendly fake guy to survive in this co.
Sometimes i wished i was still working with Kk. haha. He has got good heart and good management skills...
We always had to lose something or taste something worse to know what we had before was nice. Not the first time it happen but i guess this is how it works.
I feel really really really messed up right now. I lost a few precious things and people in my life and i don't know how i could recover them... i think i could never recover them already. I need sleep now cos i feel like i had given up on everything...
I shud die.
SteR at 10:44:00 PM
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