Monday, March 31, 2008
-Happy Birthday
Its still not twelve yet!
Happy Birthday once more.
Hope you enjoyed our company.
Grow prettier and richer ok...
Owe you your present.
and
Remember what I have said.
SteR at 11:41:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
-dreamt
I dreamt this morning.
The dream was so.
I hated myself for waking up.
Ass brain.
Finally the answer is UWA.
The next step is to talk to my parents and get the money..
It sucks.. it really suck when..
You have no money to do... something like study..
Of cos, I choose Aussie which is more ex.. but.. still..
Sign.. hope everything goes very well..
And finally my superiors really have found me an eyesore sitting down there..
Without anything to do! Haha.. and asked me to do something which he himself cannot do.
-.-... like.. well.. nothing to do means nothing to do... I have already packed the pantry and do wadeva shit i can do already.. Freak office.
"Sometimes.. giving up is harder then we think it would be."
SteR at 11:30:00 PM
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Sunday, March 23, 2008
-Finally
Been reading comics all day when i have time.
Claymore was nice.
The story of half monster/humans sacrificing lives to save humans,
yet branded as monsters, feared by humankind...
Humans are really so shallow..
Geez... I wana be.. Something else except humans.
I think being a cat would be good..
Yep i finally got it. Of all day, today.
Time for a rest. I think im super imaginative.
"Im here. For you to break."
SteR at 9:10:00 PM
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
-hongse
歌曲:背影
演唱:林宥嘉
三公分阳光三公分空气
堵在眼前像一面玻璃
挡住了你表情剩下只有脚印
He......
一直向前走走不完距离
一直向后退不出回忆
很高兴有心事帮我困住自己
你头发上淡淡青草香气
变成了风才能和我相遇
你的目光蒸发成云
再下成雨我才能够靠近
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
我怀里所有温暖的空气
变成风也不敢和你相遇
我的心事蒸发成云
再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你
感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛
所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾用来牢牢记住
不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落不用你回头看
不用珍惜
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影
所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落如果你回头看
不用在意
I listen to this song like.. 50 times a day...
Not that im a psycho.. but LYJ songs are just so nice that..
I wont get sick of the melody...
I would sit next to any radio airing this song lor..
Life for me is so dead nowadays.. bored...
The feeling of "home" in the office has been drained out...
Everyday just go there.. to wait for fallout..
Time is not enough.. but im like wasting everyday there..
The way they look at me.. Its as if.. they are telling me..
Why are you not doing anything.. yet, they didnt tell you in the face.
I would prefer you to tell me directly...
I dreamt of receiving the UWA application just now..
I dont know why.. Until now i don't know why...
Well i think tomorrow night will have no rain..
Because im on duty again..
I've said to myself before.. Think properly.
Think this way.... I will have alot of time to think tomorrow...
When we have nothing to do we will start to think too much..
Always been the case for me...
No. Its a no... No spoiling of everything...
"CODE RED RED RED."
SteR at 6:12:00 AM
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Monday, March 17, 2008
-who the hell..
Just who the hell? Crazy Shit.
SteR at 8:26:00 PM
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Friday, March 14, 2008
-mom
Today is my mom's birthday... for years i have been trying to remember my parents birth dates but i don't know why.. i just can't. Every single time, my sister will tell me the day before, "eh tml is mom's birthday". Then i'll go "ah? Really?". So... I always always can't seem to have the time to buy some presents for her/them... I know im unfilial.. whatever you want to name me.. but... that not why im here for actually... but i just cant bring myself to write what i wanted to... Maybe i'll just say something like..
"I time travelled, flew back to the past, it was really.. emo."
Duh.. time for werk and i havent packed my bag for the live run later.. Ass shit NS..
At this point of time.. I realize...
not slping too much at home can proof to be more fatal...
but..it is more useful in waking up on time..
and..sorry i shudent have complained..
SteR at 6:37:00 AM
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-jazzowrongly
It was... expected... I sort of knew. This would happen..
Why give myself another chance to ruin everything...
I knew you would complain... I knew.I knew you couldnt stand abit of pain..Like Duh.. Everything ended up so wrong.
I went to watch the whole show...
And.. Yah... ended up shopping instead.Fuck.
The rain... The rain.. This stupid rain that wont come when im on duty..
The date.. who doesn't like the music at all.. and thinks its noisy...Argh.. sometimes i think i shud just be alone.
SteR at 1:27:00 AM
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Monday, March 10, 2008
-zeroed
The Ultimate Truth is...
There will be nothing left...
I will be reduced to zero...
And there will be none...
Nothing.
I am nothing.
真相就是一无所有
SteR at 11:08:00 AM
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Friday, March 07, 2008
-here it comes again
The pressures here again.. Times pressing us.
The
Aussy thing..
Argh..
Having many bad days.. recently..
Life sucked in everyway..
Mas
Selamat aka
Nasi Lemak aka
Hari Raya making duties doubly worse..
Mother complaining about my sister..
My Uncle is really officially mad.. Like my
Aunty..
I think the next will be me...
Kip saying he strike 4D...
OMG.. like real.
Worse thing is he kip thinking he is GOD..
Kip giving people numbers that he predict will strike next..
Like Fuck...
Im sleepy... and my throat is getting worse.. like my body.
I
dono whether did i sprain my back while carrying all those 155s
But it does feel quite weird. and i cud feel my muscle aching..
Asthma attacks are coming.. I have been taking four hours of
slp recently..
Like everyday 4 hrs..
I think
im dying.. I think I am..
Suddenly tot of my very
existance here..
If i cud erase my existance.. everybody will still be continuing life normally..
Earth still rotates.. So wad m I here for?
Who knows..
SteR at 9:12:00 PM
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Tuesday, March 04, 2008
-bubbling
It seemed like a long time..
Since I had so much.. laughter in a day..
Thank you thank you for everything...
The very expensive car..
The very jerky rides..
The very emotional expressions...
The very tired mind and body..
Hope you like it.. the bubbly day.
Happy Birthday..
SteR at 12:30:00 AM
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